sigh... everythings was so suck... even what have i done, i still can't expiate it... dunno isn't a punishment from God??? i still not actually confirm about that...what can i do now is, just keep going patiently with what supposed... hmmm...hope everythings will fine sooner, i'm so tired you know... deep depression ...during this few months, everagely i got to drived by myself towards to KK two times in every week... drived alone, no body accompanied, what i always do during along the way to KK is,
singing alone, prayed alone, eat alone, smile alone, some times will cried alone...ya, i've cried before, i still remember after Pastor helped me to prayed, then my tears was started flowing down, i can't even control my tears from flowed down, i can't even say anythings, i just can said that, I'm so Tired with
all the matters that happens around me... ohMIgosH.... i'm started losting my own confidence to God you know, since
that day, my prayed, my confidence, was became fadely... besides, the life was so fagged than before too... i'm lost my friends, churches friends... suddenly felt so strange with them, even i knew them most, but i still
can't talk properly with them, dunno isn't my decision that breaked with Her was influence our friendship, cozchurches friends that i know, not the same anymore, maybe everyone in church think that i'm not supposed to break
Her, so most of them was blamed at me, okie, nevermind, i won't care with what you all think, but i'm realy happy
with my decision... happy than before... you know why ??? coz i thought that she gonna change Her attitude if i'm
back to her, so regret with my childish thinking, she So ??? aikss, hard to described, but really make me hate with
her suddenly, so fake... i don't want those faker love !!! i hate Faker!!! promises promises promises!!! please,
don't even do that if you think that you can't sure to keep that... not for her, but everyone of you... thats really
make me sick!!! hey!!! please wake up!!! think maturely!!! cheaper!!!! Nevermind, i still got a lot of friends that that still so concern with me, Hung pAk And KheN, even that just two
only, but their's already is a lot for my, about churches... hmmm... still got a few of them still will concern with me and have greeting with me too, aboundantly Thanks to them, Jun Sheng and Vui yuan... frinedship
forever ya !!!!
singing alone, prayed alone, eat alone, smile alone, some times will cried alone...ya, i've cried before, i still remember after Pastor helped me to prayed, then my tears was started flowing down, i can't even control my tears from flowed down, i can't even say anythings, i just can said that, I'm so Tired with
all the matters that happens around me... ohMIgosH.... i'm started losting my own confidence to God you know, since
that day, my prayed, my confidence, was became fadely... besides, the life was so fagged than before too... i'm lost my friends, churches friends... suddenly felt so strange with them, even i knew them most, but i still
can't talk properly with them, dunno isn't my decision that breaked with Her was influence our friendship, cozchurches friends that i know, not the same anymore, maybe everyone in church think that i'm not supposed to break
Her, so most of them was blamed at me, okie, nevermind, i won't care with what you all think, but i'm realy happy
with my decision... happy than before... you know why ??? coz i thought that she gonna change Her attitude if i'm
back to her, so regret with my childish thinking, she So ??? aikss, hard to described, but really make me hate with
her suddenly, so fake... i don't want those faker love !!! i hate Faker!!! promises promises promises!!! please,
don't even do that if you think that you can't sure to keep that... not for her, but everyone of you... thats really
make me sick!!! hey!!! please wake up!!! think maturely!!! cheaper!!!! Nevermind, i still got a lot of friends that that still so concern with me, Hung pAk And KheN, even that just two
only, but their's already is a lot for my, about churches... hmmm... still got a few of them still will concern with me and have greeting with me too, aboundantly Thanks to them, Jun Sheng and Vui yuan... frinedship
forever ya !!!!
Khen and Hung
cheng
yuan...
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