getting stranger...

well... what a terrible day for me ne...
what i supposed to talk with them, actually
with churches friends, at noon i got go to church
for looking around, just see whether got
something to do for me or not de, hmmm...
ya, i know that such been long time din go to church
for any function, but thats not my plan actually, i can't attend
to church causing by no transport to reach there ne,
i felt that our friendship was getting far with each
other, maybe all of them doesn't noticed about
that... for me, i care a lot with this friendship...
just now when i reached to church for hanging
around, they look me like a stranger, you all still can
talk even during do your work, but why dont you all
give a short greeting for me??? am i really look
damn and annoying for you all??? did i ???
please tell me what actually happens, don't make
me felt weird with myself, sitting at there just
like a fool , no one would concern about that,
not at all, how could it be??? am i changed or you all?

alot of people have been asking me am i happy recently

am i?

i dont really know.

if i say i am,then i should back to church
for fogiveness

I'm trying to persuade myself

Thinking that its really not my fault...but i know there 's
a lot of conflic and misunderstood
between us, i know even that our
friendship weren't everlasting

you should'nt shout out such so words to me...
have you ever care with my comfort and concern
that i gave it to you all???
you should think that twince...
i 'm not a beggar you know, i don't really need
you pityness, and i never beg that from you all..
i just want you all appreciated with
our friendship... i should know
this since started... i knew that i've done a lot of mistake...
raining heavily outside there,
i knew it cry for my part as well...
i knew it... thanks ...