where are you God...

hi!!! currently at Hospital QE kk here, aiksss...
ready for my bed time actually, at car here,
the car seats already is my bed since i started
step my first step at KK here, ya, i knw that
sleep inside car is not a good idea, but i just
want to save those hotel pay for futher uses actually,
instead, i'm not rich de, so poor, thats why need to
become saver ne... lol....
anyway, thats what can i do for my family,
listening to the songs, thats what i'm doing right now,
no entertaint for me at KK here, just came here
for visiting my mum, alone again...
there's no way to go actually, thats why i got to
stay at car here for whole night, hope i can get a
nice sleep just like an usual sleep at my own bed...
haizz... so bored at here, what can i see at here,
just a few secured guard guarding around parking lot
at hospital here, raining, cars, buildings, nurses,
doctor waliking around, visitors... but i'm the
only one that laying in front the seat at car here,
waiting for fall asleep, my wish, my hope, my pray,
not an importance matters for me again, there's no
reason to asume me to do so... not at all...
sometimes i just think what should i do everytimes when
i facing with this kind of situation... hmmm...
really no idea for that, depression was covering me
right now sharp at this time... time was passing slowly
... too slow... where are You God... .. .