Friends???

sunny day !!!nice day for hangging out with my dudes today, hope everything'd fine ne...hmmm... youth nowsaday getting strong and self-relianting than before, thanks God for teaching them and blessed them all the way...Cheers fOr Youth Of Sing Kang!!friends???? whats actually meant by friends for me??? hmmm, sometimes i quite curious with friends around me, maybe lesscontact and communicate with me make me felt a gap between us... hmmm, wonder why which one is my truely friend actually... friends actually won't stop chitchating with usduring all day long wherever you're, even at home, you still can communicate with friend far away from you without any anxiety or stress... but me, even igot a lot of friends, i still felt lonely everytime when i reached my home from school and church or maybe back from hangging out with friends... even i live alone, i never realized that the apearance of friends in my life, maybe just too busy with matters around me, but how a kinda friends can help me when i'was in troublesome??? arrr.... i just hope that i can having a short chatting with them through SMS or msn maybe, but thats never happens to me.... sigh...felt jealous when looking others getting so close with their friends, even far away wit each other... hung pak and Khen 're only the both what i called best friendsat school, but we never messanging more than 10 messangeswith each other....is that call friends??? so how about with churches??? i meant church friends... they seems as my second family since i believed in Christ... Cheng and yuan also is my best dude ever''ve, but we also never SMS-ing with each others too, ya, just got a few only... weird??? i don't know k... ... ...sometimes, i really need people care and concerned with me a lot, i need attention from them to what i mention always about...i know i'm not important as what they're thinking, but they all're so important to me... i just wanna take some time from them to knowing more about me, know more about my thinking andanxiety, everytime when i felt so depression, i don't know where should i hide myself and escape from the trouble... what the uses of phone without ringging??? seems doen't have Friendship exit in mY LiFe... MayBe...just let it be... ... ... ... ... ...