hey there, is me.... biao again.... 1.56am, wednesday...
can't sleep at all.... unknown factors, i can't even close up my eye and felt like wanna wake up everytime i ended up with blind eye...stupid... keep watching outside the windows, look up the dark sky, no stars, no moon appear... how could it be, everytimes when i can't fall asleep.... felt lonely suddenly... friends getting leaving from me day by day.... world getting smaller that couldn't baring my own life...
arrr.... what kind of life is this, stupid....
seems doen't make any purposely mind to think anything about life with this kind of situation, accompany by music, quite silent then, that make me felt like i'm the only one that still awake from sleep, haha, so funny when thinking for my kindly stupid state, sitting in front with my notebook, ya, blogging again... but why this happen to me, thats my frequently question, oh no no no, i should realized about it long time ago... since the stupid day was started, i know there's no rest time for me.... fine again .... but no purpose, i need to find a new way for myself, a new plan of life... okie, my own idea???? nope, there's gone... damaged... that's why i need a new purpose and manage my own life once again and again.... i need to be more flexible to managa my life according to situation around me, i'm not like others, freedom, ya, thats what i seeking for... but situation doen't allow me to think so... thanks again to Ling Ling, once again she spending time to chatting with me even thought at late night just few minutes ago... we got our own fate and own mission in this world, but see whether it's worth or not, just hope it's worth... future??? ok, just let the God planning for my future, i got my own dream, wanna be a Composser, create a songs for church, singer, or any needed, just wanna life for music... sob... just a dream only, a dream that can't ever been realized, impossible.... i got many idea for music... but no one believe that i can do so... fine... i give up... just let become dream of my life forever....
can't sleep at all.... unknown factors, i can't even close up my eye and felt like wanna wake up everytime i ended up with blind eye...stupid... keep watching outside the windows, look up the dark sky, no stars, no moon appear... how could it be, everytimes when i can't fall asleep.... felt lonely suddenly... friends getting leaving from me day by day.... world getting smaller that couldn't baring my own life...
arrr.... what kind of life is this, stupid....
seems doen't make any purposely mind to think anything about life with this kind of situation, accompany by music, quite silent then, that make me felt like i'm the only one that still awake from sleep, haha, so funny when thinking for my kindly stupid state, sitting in front with my notebook, ya, blogging again... but why this happen to me, thats my frequently question, oh no no no, i should realized about it long time ago... since the stupid day was started, i know there's no rest time for me.... fine again .... but no purpose, i need to find a new way for myself, a new plan of life... okie, my own idea???? nope, there's gone... damaged... that's why i need a new purpose and manage my own life once again and again.... i need to be more flexible to managa my life according to situation around me, i'm not like others, freedom, ya, thats what i seeking for... but situation doen't allow me to think so... thanks again to Ling Ling, once again she spending time to chatting with me even thought at late night just few minutes ago... we got our own fate and own mission in this world, but see whether it's worth or not, just hope it's worth... future??? ok, just let the God planning for my future, i got my own dream, wanna be a Composser, create a songs for church, singer, or any needed, just wanna life for music... sob... just a dream only, a dream that can't ever been realized, impossible.... i got many idea for music... but no one believe that i can do so... fine... i give up... just let become dream of my life forever....
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