apologize

there's lot of things that i wanna to apologize for...felt so sorry to yi xing, hmmm, thats what had i hided it as long as the ended of our relation... sorry ya girl, broke up our relation without any reason and discussion with you, i did it by my own, maybe this kind of decision really not fare to you, thats why i want to said sorry, thats not your fault actually, all it's because of mine, don't ever feel curios what actually happens, ya, i'm the wrong one, the person that unresponsibility with our relationship, so i'm the one should apologize from you then... anyway, thanks for having a long days with me during last few year ago, maybe we spent too much to knowing with each other but finally, what we got??? a horrible ending, it's worth? hmmm, i don't know, if i look towards with this kind of situation with positive sight, i think quite worth, coz we took an unpayable experience in Love matter, so it's worth to learn from wrong and also mistaken that we have done... nevermind, at least we know that we're immature in love, perhaps we not really know what should we do during the dating period, sometimes i think if our realtion haven't start during that time, our relation won't worse as now, arrr... add with yuan also having a same problem as mine, kind of idiot situation that was happens on us, weird weird... how can it be huh???why this happen to us... four of us, acting like a stupid young people around, our character seems exchanged with each other, thats what i heard from Cheng last time, haha, ya, kinda funny when think about it, Kenny also have a same question towards to us during that day, hmmm... sniff.... sniff..... ya... maybe some of them're right, we can't love other people instead we can't even know how to love ourself, thats the point, we should learn more how to put love to ourselves, learn how to make our self be more happy or try to not threating ourselves like a stupid people, oh yeah, i guess so... Freedom... aiming Freedom for our life, as long as we can do so... ah... whatever, out of my mind right now.... anyway, once again thanks to her, having a memorial love with me... Thanks... hope you can find your lover soon ya !! have a wonderful love...