God, i'm tired you know, the way is so hard for me right now...

all the tasks come towards to me during this few days,

works was getting into trouble now, gonna lossing a lot

of money, we need to bare up my sis and her two kids for

now, during our finance crisis, relationship also get into

argue state, studies can't go properly, because of that, i can't even

sleep well recent... how i gonna stuck with this worse situation God...!

dad keep struggle with his company and work, he also can't sleep well

everynight, coz i always heard he watch tv alone at midnight,

think for the better solved for his work, and me, seems can't help too

much, just can think the alternative way for my dad... sigh... two hours

ago, just received a msg from YinChing, ya, thats all my fault, i knew it,

i bare up all the fault, i don't even know what have i done...

she said i never understand and care with her, but don't her ever

concern what have i done with her???but you seems doesn't know about that, i took my time, and my everything to fulfill your needed, and now you said that i never concern about you??? please don't compare me with the others, i need to bare up my family, i don't have anything, thats what have i told you last time, why you still didn't understand??? when the time i need you, where're you???

when the time i need your support, you blame at me...

God,

am i loser in this life??? put my tears in your hand God,

you told me that tears was a precious give from you, last time

when i was in trouble, i cried, but You hold my heart

and told me that, "Son, Thats just a taks from Me, Trust Me,

and i'll hold your hand till the end..." i know thats

the way what should i do that time, Follow You,God...

but now, the other tasks happen on me again, will You say the same words

to me as last time??? i'm getting lost with my way, i can't hold on god...