The life is so bored recently, doing all the same thing everyday, work, serve, love, friends, entertain, bla bla bla~ just aiming a new target for myself, want to buy a new house, don't know why every time when i think about this future will make me felt so sympathetic. It wasn't a wrong thing, but in my mind, the words of God always keep remind me about His served, i seems put on too much hope for my own future, and i never think that i'm going to be a missionaries to share gospel among people. God told me to follow His path and become a missionaries, but i seems deny and rejected every time when He asked me and make a way for me, i talked to Him, told Him that i want to be a simple believer that serve and attend to church every weekend, Rev Yen once told me that put down all my burden and follow Him, but never listen to him, and now, it put me to impasse state, it's confused my life~ sigh~