i don't know what actually happens during these few days, seems not really smooth on work and others...
quite tired, quite lonely... isn't she feel bored with me or feel that i'm so annoying??? sigh... many idiot thinking come out from my mind everytime when i been stucked in this situation... maybe it's my fault, my mistake to not care her before... sigh... GOd, it's this is Your punishment for me??? sorry...
i'm try to not forcing at her, coz i scare that she won't happy when being with me, felt that she seems not like before, she hide a lot of things from me, wonder that maybe i really cannot make her feel more trusted on me... As I take some time to evaluate my life and work , I realized that I pretty often hear people said to me that I am very busy. I do not like to give others the impression that I am very busy and I have no time for them. i just can say that i'm sorry for my busy. i scare i 'll lost her, will i??? i don't know... please don't leave me alone... :"(