thursday night... an Event began...

an Event night began guys... a crazy night four of us... hoho... stupid people hagging around mile 4, seems so silly when think back what we have done that night, oh no... nevermind, nice happy than before, not bad, so happy having them as friends in my life, Cheers up friends ! muakszzzzzzzzz !! Friendship Forever ya !!!

* new photos will be upload soon, wait ya !!! tata...

12/8/09

hey there, is me.... biao again.... 1.56am, wednesday...
can't sleep at all.... unknown factors, i can't even close up my eye and felt like wanna wake up everytime i ended up with blind eye...stupid... keep watching outside the windows, look up the dark sky, no stars, no moon appear... how could it be, everytimes when i can't fall asleep.... felt lonely suddenly... friends getting leaving from me day by day.... world getting smaller that couldn't baring my own life...
arrr.... what kind of life is this, stupid....
seems doen't make any purposely mind to think anything about life with this kind of situation, accompany by music, quite silent then, that make me felt like i'm the only one that still awake from sleep, haha, so funny when thinking for my kindly stupid state, sitting in front with my notebook, ya, blogging again... but why this happen to me, thats my frequently question, oh no no no, i should realized about it long time ago... since the stupid day was started, i know there's no rest time for me.... fine again .... but no purpose, i need to find a new way for myself, a new plan of life... okie, my own idea???? nope, there's gone... damaged... that's why i need a new purpose and manage my own life once again and again.... i need to be more flexible to managa my life according to situation around me, i'm not like others, freedom, ya, thats what i seeking for... but situation doen't allow me to think so... thanks again to Ling Ling, once again she spending time to chatting with me even thought at late night just few minutes ago... we got our own fate and own mission in this world, but see whether it's worth or not, just hope it's worth... future??? ok, just let the God planning for my future, i got my own dream, wanna be a Composser, create a songs for church, singer, or any needed, just wanna life for music... sob... just a dream only, a dream that can't ever been realized, impossible.... i got many idea for music... but no one believe that i can do so... fine... i give up... just let become dream of my life forever....

我安静的在思考
我怎么开始对你有了感觉
我苦苦的在思索 你会不会想我
是不是你 我不确定
我现在的生活 是一团混乱
我很想爱你
我很想和你一起让幸福转动
我会等 那一天你会说
说爱我
我只等你主动开口
我不想当傻瓜
我在？上写满了渴望
就算让我知道我只是单恋
我也会藏着眼泪
笑着和你说再见。。。。。。

Thank you.....

biao here... currently so fine then, but situationn now worsen than before, life getting busy and difficult, why this happen to me ??? arrr, thanks to Yap Ching once again at here, i knew that she always support what i was doing everytime, your voice seems gave me a lots of comfort, no people concern at me since i was taking place for troubleness, but you still keep on finding me till you found me, haha, quite touched when i knew that you did it so, sorry for threating you badly along these few month, sorry to not reply your msg also, but sometimes this kind of situation doesn't make me felt like want to do so ... you try to keep close up my friends that getting far away from, and so on with yourself, should i facing with you and others once again??? should i apologize with you ? but i dunno what should i apologize for... i have authorize to decide my own way and life, why don't you try to support and understand with my site??? you're so lucky coz been borned to lucky and blissful family, no need bear any burden, you live properly, me??? no properly word for me, i need guide along the way to alive... sob sob, sometimes crying for tiredness, really so tired, seems wanna give up with my self, give up with my family, so on with my friends, just wanna take a properly rest, just a few hours to make my mind blank with burdeness, could it be??? impossible, that wasn't happen to me anyway, i need breath... need a freedom breath... friends actually bring a lot of happiness to me, but friends nowsaday seems getting away from me, busy??? i don't know... last words for me, Thank you, Yap Ching...