i'm tired... i seems can't keep my own friendship forever, raining now... crying the part of mine, thanks for crying with me... thanks... i've ask myself always, am i really a jerk among my friends??? maybe lot of them will think so, k, sorry about that... maybe i been created to live alone... yes... i'm...
"online world", i'm back again... only the place of here can hear my voice... i don't want to make my friends cry because of my appearence anymore... i don't want...
i'm tired le God, when You come here to take me home???

once again, i recall what have happens among me and friends last few month ago...
i'm still the one who doesn't know what the meaning of friendship... sometimes i really hate myself, hating because why i always can't hold tightly with the friendship that i have before??? untill the day when (He/She) scolding at me...

"Y ou're not worth to having a friendship like others, you should live alone! you don't even know how to manage and appreciate your friends around you, I hate you ! "

arrr... i'm loser... ya, i admit with that... not just one was said that they Hate me, but many of my friends had said so... maybe this just a short and simple words for them, but for me, it's so important to me, sorry guys... really so sorry... i don't even know that how deeply you guys hating at me, i don't know what should i do for you guys, i don't know what should i do, but i know i should said sorry sorry and sorry...
i'm dumb... i'm tired also... sorry guys...

can't sleep again... keep thinking with such non sense matter that happens around me... God where are you???
i really felt so angry with my mum, hate her !!! i know that was a sin, but i really can't stand myself with her... i hate my family, except my dad and second sis... i hate mum and big sis... they're jerk!!! bullying my dad like stupid people, my dad can keep his patient, but i can't!!!!!!!!!!!
i hate you both Jerk women in my life...!!!!!!
Yee(sec sis) don't keep your protection to mum and big sis again, it doesn't worth, please... if you want to help any one of us, just help dad better, dad old already, he need care and concern, but you seems never care with him, he felt so disappointed with you, maybe you don't knowhow me and dad live with those two Jerk and cruel women in our house, mum always keep damn die with her money, and sis just will put on her son with us, you don't know how tired we're at here, treat us like a dog, i tried to be good and want to be more obey what her want, but it's seems never work, she just know how to blaming at us only...
i'm tired enough, because of her, i can't continue my study, because of her, i can't find my own future, because of her, i saw my dad upsetting all the time... big sis also, hate her!!! doesn't know preciated people's giving, damn think that she so rich, eventhought she's not, always give trouble to dad, i'm sicking with this stupid family again... i 'm tired also... i can't even manage my family, my friends, my works, my lifestyle... everything was so suck today... life seems hard to walk through, hard and hard... what a bad day for me.. .. .. when'll this gonna end...
i lost my family, and i lost with my best friend also... i hate my life...

" biao, can't we be a stranger start from now??? when you see me, can you pretend don't know me??? can you don't talk and chat with me anymore??? "
this is what she told me when i picked up my phone, she called me and told me about this with tears and sound cried...sigh... felt so disappointed when i heard about that, heart broke~~ i'm gonna lost such a good friend just like her again... i've lost yi Tze and Yi Xing,both of them 're left, went for further education at New Zealand, felt hard to accept that... and now, i'm gonna lost her again, such a good friend and best friends around're leaving from my sight one by one... really so sorry that i gave a lot of trouble and misunderstand to you both, making argue between you both, maybe be you're right, i should disappear from your sight, don't worry, i'll leaving soon, i'll find a place for myself first, that time,maybe he won't blame you or misunderstand with you again, i don't want to see you cry again, please, promise me be happy when i'm not around you k ? help me to take care with Yuan also ya, i know that you both maybe feel so strange with each other, but Yuan actually is a nice person and friendly also, don't worry, yuan know what i'm thinking also, she know me a lot, she know that i want you both become a good friends just like me and yuan, you and me, just do whatever you think that's will make you happy k?,i'll support with you always k. and i'll be fine at here also.. i'll...

teaching~

oh yeah, i got an idea how i gonna teach my mum ways to know IT world~~~
hoho... first, as what Yin Ching and Kit Kit told me just now,
the basic way to let my mum know how to compare desktop and Laptop,
k, now, i'm gonna use their way, take a paper and draw the view for desktop and Laptop,
then, spot the different both of it, especially Desktop have a large CPU and LCD,
while Laptop had been build in all the hardware inside the housing,
seCoNd~ my mum still can't compare the USB and PS port for Keyboard and Mouse,
oh yeah, and now, i'll draw a view of how USB port look like, and also PS port,
coz she never right with both of this port while porting to any laptop and Desktop...
okie, thats all for tonight, and i'll get ready to give a small lesson to her by
tomorrow morning, hope she can really understand what i teach and
know how to compare it...
GAMBATEH !!!!!!!!!!!!!

tired dayzzz for both of them....

this girl called, Vui YUan...she can sms-ing during oi oi... Ging Yao~~~

and this Called, Yin Ching, "sleep pig"
sleep sleep sleep... oh... comfortable... ~~~~

farewell nightzzz....

sorry for low quality of picture ya...

please~

ahh... such a busy day for me... keep hanging out with friends every night, yea, it's time for rest, time for bed... but it's sure that i can fall asleep right now??? arrrr.... can't sleep again...
am i jerk??? yea, sure many of you'ld think so, well... if i really was a jerk for you, then just keep away from me ! you all always mention that friendship friendship and friendship, but don't you all never think that action better than talk??? you should respect what people's opinion or decision, or maybe we're wrong, k, fine, you shoudn't mind with that and threat us like a stranger right??? please... be mature... i admit that i'm not mature also, but you should be more mature than me itsn't??? arrr...
please please please~~~~

weird !!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh yeah... what a funny night just now when i

having a great movie with Ching, yuan and yan

yung at Cinema ne... hehe... quite nice movie

called "Hua MuLan" ahaha... ok, Ching actually

had invited her few friends to went along also,

Yenny, and few stranger for me.. eh heeee... all

female except me! nevermind, what a wonderful

blessed from God, hoho... Thanks God for

covered me with many girl girl around, Just

Kidding, LOL... well, during the movie-ing, i felt

something weird moving around beside me,

hmmm, how to describe huh??? errr, just like a

pair of couple Naking around, like a ... hmmm...

like a ... ehhhh.... Arrrr!!!! i seemly saw that guy

touched his GFriend's "??????" errr... leg??

hand?? face??? i don't know... maybe i'm drunk

by that, thats why i dunno what're they doing

there... oh my God... weird weird weird... but

funny also... stupid people, immature philipine

fooler... uewrrrr... Puikkk!!!!

RAining...

Raining day ZZZZZ... cry the part of mine...

Take care !

All of you...
please, be happy always !!!

moody day... 11-01-2010

11-01-10
arrr... once again, i seems always the one who spoiled one of my friend's mood today... jerk...
i'm jerk... really so sorry about that, felt that i always make you unhappy when having a time
with me... i know you now sure will so angry with me, really so sorry, when i heard you said me that i'm the one who always make you angry and not happy, i felt so disappointed, so sad, so tired... i don't know why i'll be the one who always hurt and break people's heart, maybe my words are too stupid and damn, or maybe because of my childish thinking and selfish make you felt so angry with me... really so sorry... am i the one who should disappear from your life???
maybe one day i'll disappear, but please promise me that you must happy and blissful always k...
i don't want you face your day with sadness... please, be happy...

lame dayzzz....

吉祥物？？？
苑靖？？？

我？？？？ nuts, impossible...

Value: RM10 only, then you can enjoy the most high class breakfast at SAndakan!!!!

07jan10

yeah, post for again and again... 12.39am, thats the time shown by clock in front of me... arrr.... can't sleep again... i'm gonna having my great time again with blogger site right now...yeah !!! once again i want to congratulation to Yin Ching for her new Blog, Gambateh !!!!!!!! hope you can upload more and more delicious cuisine,thats what she aiming for.... haha, don't just keep on eating only ya, you're getting fat than pig de ler... ikikikiki... "JK"... oh ya, yin ching told me that someone 're using my name for scolding her at her new blogger site, ohMiGosh, it's seems hard to believe that i'm gonna be famous , stranger're using my Name???!!! haha, it's seems someone that i should know... anyway, i knew it, fine, my advice for "you", God bless YOU !!!! don't use my Name again!!!
nevermind, sorry ya Yin Ching, it's seems i make a trouble for you at your new blog there, i know you knew thats no me right?! and you already mention about that, thanks for trusting at me ya !!! hoho... keep your energy for tomorrow's journey ya !!!!!!!! Life for FOOD !!! AAAAHHHHHH, sleepy~~~~ nightzzzzzz...

06jan10

hey there, seems long time didn't update for my blogger post right here... oh yeah... so tire during these few days actually, busy for what huh??? arrr.... i don't even know what i busy for, just aiming for nothing, waiting everyone go away for futher study??? whatever... just hope all the best for them...
so many stupid and darn hating things happen around, i really dunno what actually happen to them... am i changed???? thats the question that been asked from someone... please... maybe i've changed, or maybe not, is that important to you??? one day maybe you got your own life and way, so on with me, but i know friendship that we keep won't ever end if just one of us're change, don't worry, there's no any changes between our friendship k !
i know why would you think i'm changed, maybe as long as now, i seems never have a great time to comunicate with you, but i'm really so sorry about that, since i knew about " that " matter, i know i should keep a distance between you and me, such a distance line between me and you i think so, ya.. thats the point, but it doesn't mean our relation 're end, no, please don't think so, i just don't want to make any trouble for you and "yours" just hope you don't take a joke with BGR that you're having right now, maybe it's seems can't last longer, but please, try hard to keep it till the day you think you can't... try to make it become the precious love in your life k! have a nice day girl..

>.<

02jan10

time take my life... it seems past too fast than what had i expected.
everything'll back to usual, the lonely day, bored day... happy day seems can't last longer, isn't??? i miss the day with myfriends, dudes. what a wonderful christmas for me... maybe few of them won't think so, but it's my Christmas with my friends, thanks again, you always give a lot of encourage and support to me, you give me a fulfill hope that life is so wonderful, life is colourful... christmas seems the only period that can make us become more closer, you told me a lot of things that i 've ever know about that, your laugh make me crazy, kinda wanna punch your mouth out of your head, haha, thanks again, you both always make me happy even i 'm really depression with all works around... it's our friendship will be end when the end of christmas??? few of them maybe think that i've changed, i don't really know if i 've far away from your sight, really so sorry about that... why you suddenly mind with my appereance??? mind with me and people around me??? i know that we're a best friend, but have you realized that i need people care with me everytime when i get into trouble??? where're you everytime when i need care... please... i'm tired... can you please give me a space for breath???