raining day # 2

raining day again.... wall separated me and rainbeing touches... rain seems know i need it...oh yea.. .. .. emo poems ...nUts... i should learn more howto compose a good poem then...fine... sniff sniff....kiss the rain babe...

生活小秘方 # 1

tips tips tips for you guys !!!

Combined

yeah, the lastest picture during our youth 's

fellowship combined with IAC's youth ... just

take a look... kinda sporting and friendly... i guess so...

no words for describe about that felt... oh

holy God... ish ish ish...

200th

wow.... Cheers For the 200th post...

Yeah... wooohOooooo

letter to Yuan

hey yuan, how was your feel right now??? still okie??? i mean the situation with your family, hmm, don't be sad and disappointed with your family, maybe they haven't realized the real situation of you, maybe they're busy of something, but please don't ever think that family is place for you to lay or hide only, family actually is a warm place and a place for seeking blissful and comfortable from parents and bro and sis, there's no perfect family in this world, but i know many people right getting loses with their family member day by day, i'm the example that you can see through, like my dad, keep on working around, and my mum, keep surviving from death hell, and me???, seems i'm the one who doen't have a perfect family too, but a try to appreciate every moment with my family right now, coz i dunno when the end of my family day, so i must do whatever i can do for my family right now, maybe no people can see and understand what have you done for your family, but thats not the important, the important one is are you really have spending a time and love with your family??? it is worth for you to do so... i think you should know my situation right now, and i always mention it with you right...? haha, so don't start appreciate it when there's gone, try to keep on patient, whatever situation, you must try to do so... there's the only way... or you can talk to your family also, at least you have the people to talk to... i think thats the proper way for that...nevermind, you can try to talk with me or someone that you trust to share and nag about your family, and i'll be your audience anytime de, keep on contact with me when you need a help from me k, so whatever situation, be strong ya, i believe in you, you can do it ... happy always ya yuan... keep on smiling ya, you're look ugly when you're not putting smile on your face ne... hehe...Gambateh!!! let's gambateh for our family ya!Cheers for Your Happiness oh !!!!

na, i dunno whether you like

panda or not right now, so i take the real

panda pic for you, hope you like it ,

coz it also called "YUan YUan " too oh...

HOHOHO...

letter to xing

hey xing, i know your reading my blog always,

thanks for your supported ya, and your blessed

also, but i think i better wait you to found your true love

before i start seeking for mine...

maybe is because of responsibility, and promises

have i done with you make me should think so...

ya, i hurted you a lot, thats why i should

make sure you 're blissful with your partner of

life, then i won't feel too guilty and worry with you

, anyway, sorry again for didn't realized any

promises to you, so, please don't think love is cruel and

unreal, maybe only during the period with me was

the bad one, cause i'm kind of unresponsibility people,

so don't though every love that you'll accept was a lie too,

please don't, love actually so wonderfull you know,

you just need a some time to waiting for it only,

a person without love, just remain black and whitecolour in their life,

but a person with love, full with a lot of colour in their life...

so, please tell me when you get your true love ya,

let me know that you're happy always oh,

don't hidding your own sadness always, try to talk with other people

that you trust with them, cause i knew you're type of

silent people, nevermind, you still got a lot of friends

around, maybe someone has waiting for you then, so just

keep on happy in your life ya !

Cheers for your Happiness ya !!!

Na! i send you a pic of Pooh pooh photos,

hope you Happy always ya !

uploaded

yeah, a new picture have
been uploaded... actually just
a previous photos that been took
during my birthday... HUH?! can't
see any new picture??? oh ya, actually
yuan uploaded it on her Blogger site
then, not me k... haha...
so please log on her blog
at http://vuiyuan-love25.blogspot.com/

apologize

there's lot of things that i wanna to apologize for...felt so sorry to yi xing, hmmm, thats what had i hided it as long as the ended of our relation... sorry ya girl, broke up our relation without any reason and discussion with you, i did it by my own, maybe this kind of decision really not fare to you, thats why i want to said sorry, thats not your fault actually, all it's because of mine, don't ever feel curios what actually happens, ya, i'm the wrong one, the person that unresponsibility with our relationship, so i'm the one should apologize from you then... anyway, thanks for having a long days with me during last few year ago, maybe we spent too much to knowing with each other but finally, what we got??? a horrible ending, it's worth? hmmm, i don't know, if i look towards with this kind of situation with positive sight, i think quite worth, coz we took an unpayable experience in Love matter, so it's worth to learn from wrong and also mistaken that we have done... nevermind, at least we know that we're immature in love, perhaps we not really know what should we do during the dating period, sometimes i think if our realtion haven't start during that time, our relation won't worse as now, arrr... add with yuan also having a same problem as mine, kind of idiot situation that was happens on us, weird weird... how can it be huh???why this happen to us... four of us, acting like a stupid young people around, our character seems exchanged with each other, thats what i heard from Cheng last time, haha, ya, kinda funny when think about it, Kenny also have a same question towards to us during that day, hmmm... sniff.... sniff..... ya... maybe some of them're right, we can't love other people instead we can't even know how to love ourself, thats the point, we should learn more how to put love to ourselves, learn how to make our self be more happy or try to not threating ourselves like a stupid people, oh yeah, i guess so... Freedom... aiming Freedom for our life, as long as we can do so... ah... whatever, out of my mind right now.... anyway, once again thanks to her, having a memorial love with me... Thanks... hope you can find your lover soon ya !! have a wonderful love...

once again for memorial...

again and again, what have i mention about friends always...

just visited yuan's blog, ya, so on with her, we always

kilndy mention and keep every each relation that

we can keep between us... anyway, like usual,

we can't do anything actually, some like people

around us getting stranger than before,

seems doesn't know with them at all, i miss with

those smile and pure happiness before, i don't want

to be the stupid people again, been used or threat

like a fool... uh... i hate that feel...

please be mature guys, you all shouldn't be like,

it's not easy to find a true friends at this moment,

why don't you all keep on healing each broken heart among

us??? keep the relation even though we know thats impossible,

but for me, nothing is impossible except you didn't want

to do so... okie, friends, nevermind, i respect your decision,

whatever your decision, i'll support you always, i just want to tell you that,

you're my friend forever , no matter where you're, the heart of mine

will still keep an empty seat for you always... please don't

forget with our happiness before...

Cheers for friendship forever... MuaKszzzzzzz...

please log on:

http://vuiyuan-love25.blogspot.com/

posted

arr... once again, nothing to type about...
nothing to do for today, nothing special cases happen also... everything seems go smoothly and peacefully, no war and enemy around, haha...
thats good also, no need to worrying anything about people around me...
sniff...
think and think, quite spent so much time with
blogging at here since i started my first blg
post last year ago, ya, it's gonna be 200th
posts again, haha, 10 more posts to go.... yeah...
it's been the part of my life, maybe sometimes
i'm kind of "secret hider" among my friends,
thats why i need to post out every common secret
about myself and people around me, maybe
thats the only one of my way to release every
burden of secret that i bared so far... but not
all the secret would be post out, yeah, i should
keep my own secret as defenses ne, haha,
at least i won't been attack during the
time of my weakness been digg out......
great, thats enough,
as long as i still will continue
shout out evrythings about me and also
friends, family, and and those yucky bud also...
ikikiki....
okie... i know my post getting short than before,
fine fine, i'll upgrade it with more nagged post k !!! tata!!!

please correct me, if i am wrong...

hard thinking what should i type for today...

currently sitting in front of my laptop,

having my time with listening to songs...

recalling all the memorial period with my those

church dude, we all had a passed happiness

together, but after a certain matters was happens

among us, everything was changed, major of them doesn't

really able to join our conversation around event

for a chat, and hangging around together...

their're not as passion as before, everytime when i

ask for have a drink, surly they threw a lot of excuses

to not join with us, arrr... sometimes really make me crazy

when think about that, finally, we still with our

planning without them, ya, nevermind, more people

doesn't meant can have a fun, but less people maybe

can take together to share and getting know more about

with each other so that no any misunderstand'll appear

among us, instead our gang member getting less than before,

arrr... sound rude when i used "gang" this word, haha...

nevermind, important you all know what i mean for...

k, i spent too much time with blogging at here, gonna

carry on with my stuff now...

Cheers Babe... Friendship Forever... (again) ikiki....

presentszzzzzz....

Thanks again to those who celebrated my birthday with me, so on with those who're sent a nice greeting msg to me... Thanks dude....

birthday picture...

Cheers my Friends!!!!!!!!!!

previous photos at Kudat...jump jump jump !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

previous photos...

yeah... okie, line become better now, so i can upload more photos that i have'nt upload yet, enjoy ya !!! yippie ~~~~

Kiss the rain...

[ti:Kiss The Rain]
[ar:Yiruma钢琴曲]
Kiss The Rain

生命中
不断地有人离开或进入
于是，看见的，看不见了
记住的，遗忘了

生命中
不断地有得到和失落
于是，看不见的，看见了
遗忘的，记住了
然而
看不见的
是不是就等于不存在
记住的
是不是永远不会消失
愿天下有情人终成眷属

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birthday!!!

happy birthday biao!!... yeah, currently at my own bedroom, blogging at here, the end of my birthday have given me a lot of memorial that i won't ever forget... maybe the last birthday celebration for me... thanks aboundantly to Cheng, yuan, puppet, meteor, xing, susu, ching, dick, joshua, Bing, tony, Henry and david... they had planned a fool birthday event for me, even not a big matter, but at least i'm not alone for this year... we having our steambolt at IJM Farmosa as our dinner, ya, quite happy when can having fun with them, but maybe got certain people 're not really enjoy during that time, nevermind, i just can say sorry to those people ne, no next time ya.... hoho.... oh ya, they sang a long birthday songs ne, people around keep looking at us, ikiki, maybe they jealous with my special day tonight, one more, i just received a super duper weird present from them ,arrr... underwear, t-shirt with bones, short pants.... arr... thats was cool present ne, don't worry friends, i'll keep it as my precious give de ne... thanks again ya !!! Happy friendship forever ya !!! Cheers babe !!!! hoho...

raining day...

raining sunday... arrr.... raining again... seemingly having my own time alone at home, listening to the songs, i didn't take dinner tonight causing from lazyness, haha... lazy to cook ne... whatever... 21/09 is my birthdate, thats mean tomorrow, hmmm, didn't expect any special matter for my birthday, i just hope my friends around me can happy always, thats all.... this year maybe will celebrate my birthday at home, i guess so, thats not important for me, last year i still have Cheng them can celebrate with me, haha, quite happy during thats moment, my old classmate also back from other side just for celebrated my birthday, wow, quite touched ne, even just a short period of happiness with them, it's enough for me, felt satisfied than ever, yeah, so i don't expect anything for this year... hopefully everything'll going smoothly... oh ya... i rewarding myself a small cross as my birthday present, wish can always remind myself to not separate with God, don't worry God, i'll try my best to get close to You k! line so lag here, i can't sure whether i can post out my blog on time of not, anyway, Cheers for my birthday first...Happy Birthday Biao...

tonight...

ya.. that's felt great for tonight...

having a drink with yuan, ching and dick

at mile 4, everything seems was so fine

the, thank to yuan again, coz she still

being as a great and best friend with me, we have a great night

compare with last saturday agao, sometimes i

think even just four people of us having a drink together

but at leat it was so great than many people having around,

fake fake fake, we talk a lot for tonight, i think you

all better visit Yuan's blog for more futher about tonight

's matter then... yeah... log on http://vuiyuan-love25.blogspot.com/

cheers ya yuan !!! Gambateh !!!

love letter from other side...

别问我为何爱你
它就是突然来了
越来越在乎你
越来越需要你
于是
我知道 我爱上了你
或许你不会成为我最后一个
但 我相信 你是最特别的那一个
不管你是否把我放在你心中直到永远
或者10年以后20年以后
你根本不记得有这一个我
但这里有一个我
把你放在心中。。。。

True Friends..

True friends are like butterflies...the beauty of their friendship never dies...friendyou hold my hand and make me smile, in times of need, you go an extra mile, your love and care is the joy of my lifeFriend, it is because of you, life is more worthwhile!

Expectations!

Expectations! we all have them. we expect that people will be nice to us, that we'll have good health, great BGR, faithful friends... but what we do when life doesn't live up to our expectations??? arr... life seems doesn't show any smooth and good expectations within, stuck in badly lifestyle, not a great life to be! thats what i faced right now, oh yuack!!!! terrible life... kind of broken expectations easily to get discourage... no way... i can't make thats become my troubleness then, it shouldn't be...nonsense!!! oh yeah... feel stupid when taking the word of Expectation as a problem of life... hoonestly, everythings gone too fast, hard to carry on what was happen during these few days... but actually i just recall what had happens last saturday ago, ya, that music festival night... once again i saw yuan's blog had mentions about those matter, felt weird when been left away by them, broken expectation, i expected that all of us would gonna having a drink together after the festival, unfortunately, kindly bad night for me, anyway, thanks to Yuan for not blaming at me cause i'm just bought her a can of 7up only, hoho, funny way for spending a drink with her on that night, arrr, about Thomas, yuck! hell hectic when recall all his acting during that night, oh please~ don't make me crazy again~~~

MV

stop it please...

can we stop our misunderstood ?

i don't think thats worth for us to do so...

because of small matter that changed our relation

become worst... i don't like with this kind of situation...

and i hate these so much...

stop fighting with each other...

stop it please....

it doesn't worth at all...

everything will gonna end sooner,

hope it'll end as soon as possible...

Cheeers... my friends...

friends...

ya... i just found these old picture last few minutes ago, their're getting change ne, not like the same look as these few picture le... now they're more handsome and beauty ne... hope our friendship still can keep as previously moment then... everlasting friendship... please... even your face have changed, but please don't make our friendship been change by any misunderstand or any matter whatever kind of situation... shall we keep our friendship as what have we keep it as long time ago???

... life really make people getting tired and tired than before...
especially friends around us... seems getting stranger...
life?? friends??? that just will make us feel tired and annoyed...

festival...

hey there... currently sitting in front of my computer, thinking what should i type and share with you all what was happen for today and tonight also... just reached home after fetched Yuan back home safely just now, quite nice while listening to music performance by quartet house's student, they organized a small music festival, but kinda bad for me, coz i don't really like rock music ne... arr... sound too loud... whatever, out of my business anyway...
but before the festival end, Cheng, yi ning, henry,meteor and puppet...ZUPPPPPP... where they go??? weird weird... heard from henry, they went for "yam cha"(in Cantonese; mean have a drink), or maybe supper, by the way, me, yuan, ching, Thomas, and dick still sicking with that festival, just waiting for yuan and ching finish for their closing ceremony... weird situation; why don't they keep patient for half an hour so that all of us can having drink together??? arrr... i should know that, felt like i've been stay apart by them, ya, thats what i realized... maybe i'm not the same Biao anymore as long as they know with me, arr... please... i'm still the same biao okay?! how dare you all just go away without waiting for yuan and ching them??? they still our friends guy... don't ever leave them away k, we need friends so on with them, if tonight i make a decide to follow you all, surly yuan will feel lonely then, or maybe in positively sight she can get her others friend at there, thats i'm not really sure, but at least we can accompanying them to finish their duty before we going for a drink right??? yeah, maybe most of them were think negatively with me and yuan, k fine, just think what you all want, if thats can make you all happy, then keep on thinking for that, think as long as you like, think till you feel you get that satisfication...just a bollocks for me... maybe you all think i'm wrong, but really so sorry, i don't think i'm wrong, i just do what can i do for my friend, maybe my small sacrifice can make my friend feel happy, this concept appear on my mind since long time ago, i don't hope the passed influence our relationship, sorry guys, if you ask me to leave my friend around that stupid festival and join you all for drink, i'm shouldn't allow myself to do so... i won't...

Dear : friend "You"
maybe i'm not a good friend, but i'll try my best to be a good audience, listen each drops of your tear, your voice, your smile;

i'll try my best to not leaving each one of my friend behind my back, but at least don't move to strange place that i can't find and see you;

tell me where you're, don't be shame to ask for my help, i'm glad to be the part of your hand to lift you up when you fall down;

tell me when you're tired, i'll lend you my shoulder, lean down when you feel tired to my thigh, i'll sing a lullaby for you till you're sleep;

tell me when you need an audience for your voice of heart, i'll be the puppy to listen your voice without saying anything, i'll lend you my hand to wipe off your tear;

tell me where you want to go, i'll spend out my time for you, i'll cover you with my umbrella, so that you won't feel tight with wheather;

tell me when you're suffer, i'll take all your pain for which you only repay it with a word of greeting, so that you won't owe me anything;

but,

don't tell me when you want to leave, coz i don't like with separated, so that i won't feel sad with your leaving;

don't tell me when you're happy, coz i don't want my sadness influence your happiness, so that you still can happy even without my appearance;

by the way,

i hope you not realized with my disappear, coz i don't want you to feel upset even in time of second; i hope our relation won't end up with my dissapear, just let it be, let our friendship end along with the end of our day...


by : Your friend, Biao

心。

TO : 身边的朋友

很多时候， 当我们开始去喜欢一个人，
而在还没得到他时， 会感觉到他真的是完美的，
世界上每有比他更完美的东西，
但是当你得到他的时候， 而且时间久了，
才发觉其实并不是你想象中的好， 这是
因为心里出现一个可以比较的东西。

往往很多的情侣都会发觉别人的情侣比自己的还要好，
那是因为你还没得到他。

一个真正的情侣并不只分享甜蜜，
而是一起分担过去的风吹， 挨过未来的雨打，
一个能和你分享生命中的点点滴滴， 一个爱你的心和你的情，
而真正能够珍惜爱情的情侣是由，开始的苦到后来的甜，
可能你和他的一举一动， 关系，
甚至你们俩的友情，将会被身边的人和朋友批示，
但是， 就因为你们俩受苦前的忍耐，
能带来永恒的甜蜜， 不在乎别人的看法，
只在乎争取自己的幸福，
但是懂得开始甜蜜的人，
并不懂得分担后来的苦，就不能握紧彼此而分离。

爱情并不时一场游戏， 更不是一个戏剧，
爱情是自然而来， 自然的甜蜜，自然的和他相处，
自然的向他诉苦， 爱和情是一起的，
就像两颗在夜里的星星， 虽然宁静，
但拥有和悦的心，在永恒的黑暗中，
让大地感觉到它的存在，让别人感觉到他们的温暖，
为爱而发亮， 为爱而闪耀， 尽所能的照亮每一个人，
让每个人知道拥有真爱的存在。

希望每一个拥有爱情过去的朋友，
能够找到一颗能让你们闪光的星星，
你们的爱情并不失败， 只是你们还没发觉你身边的星星，
也许被乌云遮住了， 但只要你不放弃的争取等待，
你将会找到那颗能让你闪亮的星星。

FROM:

一个关心你点点滴滴的朋友

death...

suddenly felt that death was so scary... why would i think so??? maybe too tired... those feel suddenly appear on my mind, sometimes this felt really can't make me sleep peoperly and i was keep thinking of it... unpredicable future...will God accompany us when we die??? where should we go after death... heaven??? i'm scare, scare to walk alone to heaven when the end of my life... cause i don't even know where 's the right way to heaven, maybe thats the wrong way, who knows???if i realized that i'm the wrong way, should i return or just keep on going??? maybe... which should come first, death or salvation???